Worrying ’bout things that will not happen to me…
Sunday morning mostly is an easy peasy day here at our home. We don’t need to get up (luckily our pup is not a morning “person”) and we try not to plan too much activities outdoors as our weekdays are mostly hectic enough.
Depending on the past events I sleep longer or wake up early… The latter points in the direction of a rather exciting or turbulent week. Given the past week, it was an early wake up after a mere 3 hours sleep.
The wheels in my head kept on turning, tumbling, racing, jumping from one thought to another. Real worries and hypothetical ones.
Especially the – let’s face it – trivial quarrel with that blasted neighbor was not worth lying awake for. I am quite sure many people will shake their heads and wonder why on earth I am that troubled with it, and they are right. I wish I was able to treat it – and him – the way dogs do. Turn my back on it, shake it off, and go on with my life. But I can’t. Probably it’s one of my major problems: not being able to let go.
And what’s more, in my head I make so many conversations with that man. “If he says this, I’ll say that. And i have to remember so and so, i’ll write it down or i’ll forget, he’s been a pain for much too long, for too many people, who does he think he is? etc. etc. ”
Stupid, unnecessary hypothetical conversations that lead to nowhere and nothing, but to making me more nervous, more sleepless and tired.
They have only one advantage , if ever one of them would take place, my mind will be very prepared to give the right answers. But what are the chances such happens?
I do promise myself however, time and time again to live by the wonderful Jason Mraz song: Living in the moment.
Especially this piece of its lyrics is very applicable to this phenomenon:
If this life is one act
Why do we lay all these traps
We put them right in our path
When we just wanna be free
I will not waste my days
Making up all kinds of ways
To worry ’bout all the things
That will not happen to me
So I just let go
Of what I know I don’t know
And I know I only do this by
Living in the moment
In case you never heard the song, check it out, I love it (Jason Mraz, Living in the Moment)
Now I’m going to catch up on that lost sleep, and after that I’ll plant an avocado :) and join @jofabi (IG) in the #theavocadoclub – excited to see it develop.
See you. Marl1xo